Thursday, June 26, 2014

Will You Stand In The Gap?

The title is in honor of the sermon my pastor preached one Sunday. He covered Ezekiel 22:30. In it, God says:

"I looked for someone to stand up for me against all this, to repair the defenses of the city, to take a stand for me and stand in the gap to protect this land so I wouldn’t have to destroy it. I couldn’t find anyone. Not one. So I’ll empty out my wrath on them, burn them to a crisp with my hot anger, serve them with the consequences of all they’ve done. Decree of God, the Master."

Tell me that's not convicting! 

My head is so full right now. I wish we really were across from each other, sipping on coffee or drinking a Diet Coke (Chai Tea Latte?) and talking about this stuff. 

I am so absolutely convicted right now and I want to try to share this burning in my heart. 

Forgive me for being dramatic. I have a flair for the dramatic in some things, but seeing as how I spend most of my days wiping butts and cleaning boogery faces, I feel like my feet are usually firmly planted in the un-dramatic. 

Sometimes the Old Testament can be "boring" and bog us down. 

Sometimes it's hard to understand how things written thousands of years ago can pertain to us now in the 21st century. 

Sometimes we read the same things in the Bible so often that they lose their flavor, their salt.

But these verses in Ezekiel have rung a bell in me. 

I think that if I am going to believe in a God who created the earth and heavenlies, who created humans, animals, bugs, birds and reptiles in all their intricacies...

Who parted the red sea, raised people from the dead, and created the perfect sacrifice in Jesus...

He can certainly create Word that is living and active and speaks to us the same now (and years from now) and be pertinent for us just as it was back then. 

This post isn't for those who are comfortable with the status quo.

If you're humming along nicely and all feels good, this isn't for you.


If you feel there is more.

If you feel there is more than this life with its creature comforts and the task of to-dos that we tack on the fridge or into our smartphones every day...

If you feel a burning to be more and do more...

If you think this place isn't our home and we're just passing through...

Then this post, is for you.

I feel it. I have been bothered with it for a while, but just recently I have felt a greater sense of urgency. 

An urgency beyond attending church on Sunday, singing songs and maybe even raising my hands.

An urgency beyond blogging and making videos.

An urgency beyond reading my Bible every day. 

It's an urgency to want nothing more than to plant myself and read this Book from cover to cover: to get to know Him as closely as I possibly can.

I feel this uncomfortable-ness when I start really believing that my time on earth is short and that this life is not all that there is. 

It's an agitation--a realization--that if I truly believe that--I am called on the carpet to make some changes.

If I really believe that my purpose, my calling on this planet is to teach others about the love of Jesus and prepare myself to serve Him for an eternity in Heaven, that changes some things. 

That changes everything.

Being a follower of Jesus is more than attending church, singing praise music, and putting money in the collection plate.

It goes beyond leading a ministry, attending or leading Bible studies, writing a blog, and even preaching.

It's deeper and longer and far more intimate.

It is ingrained, intertwined, and interwoven so deeply with the very center of who I am.

So deeply, in fact, that it becomes almost humanly impossible not to change.

And there I am, looking in the mirror and faced with some difficult decisions. 

Am I willing to look wide-eyed at the changes needed or will I continue to squint at myself?

I'm terrified to give myself an honest answer. Either way, I am acknowledging some heavy Truth and I must live with myself for my choice.

If I throw my head back, open my eyes wide and embrace the reality of who I am and who I should be, I have some work to do and a long road ahead of me. 

If I look away or peer at myself through the slits in my fingers, I will be living a lie. 

And worse? I don't know yet which path I'm taking. 

I know the path I should take and I know the path I want to take...

But do I have the courage to follow it through, to make the hard choices, and to really live a life worthy of the calling of Christ?

What about you?

Have you ever been at this cross-roads? Have you stood before the mirror and had to make a decision like this?

What did you do?

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