So many times I look around at the babies running around in diapers, the stack of dishes on the counter, the half-eaten lunch still in bowls on the table, the sticky, dirty floors, the mounds of laundry that never get done, or I stew about what I can write or what I can do to make a difference. And I feel myself pining for something more.
I think, "in this season of my life, my family is my priority, but when the kids are grown, I can really launch into ministry."
And I look at others around me whom I admire like Candace Cameron Bure, Darlene of Time-Warp Wife, Courtney of Women Living Well, Lysa TerKeurst of Proverbs 31 Ministries and I feel totally inadequate.
These women are New York Times Best-Selling Authors. They have enormous followings. They have teams of people in ministry with them.
What could a married mom of 6 from a small town near Pittsburgh, PA possibly have to contribute to the world?
And then, as He so often does, God brings me back to reality with a kind word and a swift kick in the behind.
"Bloom where you're planted."
I don't know that that exact phrase is in the Bible, but it I've heard it many times. :)
If I truly believe Psalm 139 (that I was knit together in my mother's womb) and Jeremiah 29:11 (that God has a plan for me, a plan to prosper me and not to harm me) then I have to believe that God has me right where He wants me. Right now.
God is not going to waste a moment by having me somewhere that does not contribute to His plan for me. Therefore...if I look around, I will find the areas I am to minister into.
Here they are:
My circle/sphere of influence
And while I may not be called to lofty things like speaking engagements, book deals or an audience of thousands, I do feel called to be here. With my family. And on this little blog. Sharing my imperfections and lessons with you.
And I love it here. And I am thankful for any who read and those who comment.
And it goes without saying that loving my family is above and beyond any blessings I could have imagined on this earth.
And I'm thankful that a mighty God can use a tiny me for His grand purpose.
Are you wondering where God can use you?
Do you feel that looking at spreadsheets or handling customer calls isn't a "real" ministry?
Sweeping up Cheez-its and scrubbing toilets doesn't feel as glamorous as speaking at Women of Faith?
Don't feel like writing or blogging is your "thing"?
Wondering how you fit into this cosmic puzzle?
Look around you.
God is not a God of confusion. He has placed you in this very place for a reason.
Pray and ask what His plan is for you.
Look for everyday opportunities to be the "hands and feet" of Christ (which is a poetic way of saying to be kind to others, treat others the way you want to be treated, to love without prejudice...)
And be willing to listen to that small voice that tells you to GO and DO even when it feels uncomfortable. Even when it feels "small" compared to others' ministries. Even when it is the LAST thing you ever thought you would do. Even if you don't feel like it's "enough".
Because, I'm finding, when I bloom where I am planted, and look at my life--as it is right now-- as my ministry, that's when the magic happens. :)