I struggle with this every day, I swear. That battle between who I want to be and who I really am. In Romans 7:19, Paul said "For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do--this I keep on doing." (NIV)
Amen brother, amen.
This is the mantra of my life. From eating to exercising to cursing to being hateful to being proud...it's the same.
I know what I SHOULD be doing and what I WANT to be doing...and then I march off and do the EXACT opposite.
One of my biggest fears is being a hypocrite. Naturally I am because it's almost impossible NOT to be at some time or another...but I mean the day in and day out variety.
I see so many people who check off the box that says "Christian" and then proceed to live their lives in such a way there is no mistaking they 1) have no idea what the Bible says, 2) don't care what the Bible says, or 3) Make the Bible into what they want it to say.
Now, do I have a corner on the Bible? Not really. There are parts I question and parts I don't understand, but I'm talking about issues that God is absolutely, crystal clear about.
I see Facebook posts all day long in support of things that clearly fly in the face of the Bible, yet if you click the "About" section of that person's profile, you'll see they proclaim to be Christian or Catholic or some other variation of a Bible believer.
At least be honest about who you really are.
Why hide behind a title or denomination if you don't really believe in its tenets?
Why is it okay to take God's Word and twist it into what feels good to you? What's easier to swallow?
I don't know...I'm taking a guess here since I'd have to ask every single person who does this WHY they do this, but maybe there is something comforting in professing a faith we don't really hold to. It's easy to claim God as our own in times of need and struggle, but conveniently forget his Word on certain subjects when it doesn't 'benefit' us in any way.
Or when it's not something we want to believe/follow/hold to.
I think <---and you all know with a preamble like that something profound is about to follow since I am full of sage wisdom [insert sarcasm font here], I think that God wants us to choose Him.
I've heard it said that He is a Gentleman and will not force His way in anywhere.
I keep telling Joe I hate where our world is headed. Now, is it really that much worse than it was 10, 20 or more years ago or do I just notice it more now that I am a "grown up"? That's a whole other debate...
But, today I realized (not for the first time) that God will allow whoever is going to be president to be president. Whoever it is, I believe, God will allow it to be. So, He's in control. And even if that makes things harder for Christians, maybe it's because it's time we start taking a stand for things and make a public CHOICE for Him.
With past administrations, it's been a little easier to claim Christian...I have never felt my beliefs or my freedoms more challenged than I do today. Maybe this is where God weeds out the men from the boys?
If things continue going the way they are, conservatives will continue to be targeted and hated for being conservative. It will be dangerous to speak out against main stream beliefs for fear of persecution.
Maybe that's where we find our voices, where we speak up for the things that we have been able to coast along about until now.
I'm just supposing.
Who knows how things will be.
All I know is more and more I wish I could live like the people in The Village...in a small commune with my closest friends and family away from the crime and degeneration of this world.
But then, that wouldn't exactly be doing what God has called His people to do for eons, now would it?
Narrow is the path to get into Heaven, God said. I feel it narrowing more and more every day. I want to fit through. I don't want to take the easy way out just to follow the majority, or to avoid confrontation.
Most importantly, I want to be real. Whatever I say I believe I want to own it.
I wish everyone did that, regardless of his or her beliefs. It doesn't mean we all have to agree, just...be real about who you are.
**Stepping down off soap box.**