Friday, January 8, 2010

As good as it gets

God is so good!

I wholeheartedly set out today to write a whining, self-indulgent, woe-is-me post.

And then God did His thing.

Here's how it originally started...

It's one of those days's only 11:30am.

Unfortunately, Joe did not get the job. That's so frustrating. We prayed last night that God's will would be apparent and that the door would be unmistakably closed if it wasn't meant to be, but it still stings. This job just seemed like such a great opportunity for so many reasons. Now, my heart breaks for my husband who is so unappreciated in his current position by owners who are so lacking in their integrity and their ethics. I've had to watch too many times while he gives so much of himself (often at the expense of me and the kids) to people who don't appreciate it one bit...people who couldn't even be bothered to say "Merry Christmas" let alone give a card or a bonus, even though the company is making money. Makes me so angry.

I know, I know...I have already told myself all the things we have to be grateful for. And believe me, I am so grateful. I just need a moment to vent.

We have 4 beautiful children
Our children are healthy and happy
We are healthy and happy
We have a home that we love
We have a job, when so many don't
We have groceries
We have family who loves us
We have friends we can count on
We have each other
We have a wonderful church that has been there for us in so many ways
We have a God who knows what's best and won't leave us on our own-even when we think we can do better without His guidance.

I know all of these things and believe them...but when things like today happen.--the job fell through, bill collectors call, M has peed through his diaper about 3 times already, a glance at our bank account is depressing, and E purposely spilled almost a full box (our last one, I might add) of M's oatmeal all over the office--I just want to go back to bed. I want to call in sick.

But, God gives us just what we need. Oh how I sometimes wish he would lavish us with the material things that we want, but in my heart I know that's not what is best for us.

Joe asked me if he should try to pursue a lower position within the company he interviewed for. We talked about it and we wanted to research the pay rate a little more, so I googled it. I didn't exactly come across the pay scale, but what I did find was so much more valuable. It was a website that rates different companies based on location, salary, quality of life, respect, and other things. This website, with comments from current and former employees, painted a not-so-great picture of the company. It appears that if Joe had accepted this "dream job" he would be in the same type of environment that he's in now, and maybe worse.

Thank you, God.

I found this site after having a big ol' pity party for myself complete with tears and snot and plenty of "when will we get off this roller coaster?" comments to God. His answer was to show me that we would have been no better with this job. See...we really DO need His guidance. I firmly believe that.

And so...we are just going to stay put and see what comes our way, if anything. Waiting is the worst. I'm no good at it. But James 5:7-9 says:

Be patient, then, brothers, until the Lord's coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop and how patient he is for the autumn and spring rains. You too be patient and stand firm, because the Lord's coming is near. Don't grumble against each other, brothers, or you will be judged. The judge is standing at the door!"

I am a professional grumbler. I excel at complaining. I am second-to-none in feeling sorry for myself.

Those are "honors" I'm not proud of.

I want to be content in all that I have and where I am in life.

And when I 'm honest with myself, where I am and what I actually pretty darn awesome!

Pictures, Top -Bottom: 1)Joe and I doin' a cheesy self taken picture, 2)Our home, 3)Our beee-u-tiful babies, 4)Me and my sister Missy, 5)Me and my sister Mindy, 6) Me and my friend Theresa


  1. Aunt.Mandy,
    Im so sorry Uncle.JoJo didnt get the job.Those people are crazy for not picking Uncle.JoJo for the job!!!The picture of Rocco,Liam,Emmy,and Max is soooooo cute with their little ''Here Comes Trouble'' shirts on!!!:)

  2. Meg,

    Thank you. I agree with you that they are crazy for not hiring Uncle Jo Jo. We love u!

  3. It is so very difficult to actually trust God, even though it's easy to say we believe in Him. I still try to hold our lives in my little hands, as if I could do a better job of controlling things than He can! I understand your fears and worries, it's not easy raising a family in today's world. I hope things get settled for your hubby employment-wise SOON!

  4. I smile when I type..."I knew her when"!!! You are simply fabulous in every way and I LOVE what you've done with your blog! XO

  5. Thank you! How fun that you are the first comment from someone I don't know!!!!!! Thank you for reading. And...we accept any and all prayers! =)

  6. Hellllooooo! Thank you for reading!!! You know I feel the same about you!

  7. Mandy,
    I'm not sure if you will post today, but now's my one and only chance to check it out! Quickly took a look at a few fun recaps! Have a great day!


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