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Thursday, December 31, 2009

Sigh

Well, it's the last day of 2009. It actually kind of snuck up on me (sneaked? snuck?). My inlaws volunteered to watch the kiddos tonight so I can join the hubbs at his second home--I mean, at work--to ring in the new year. I know, I know, my inlaws are awesome. And they are all mine. =)

So, since I will be venturing out in public with all of the downtown Pittsburghers tonight, I guess that means that I will have to wear something other than my fave sweats, right? I don't know. Maybe I could dress them up a little. I have some sweet black leather boots...I'm sure they would look great with the baby blue velour yoga pants and ripped sweatshirt I'm currently wearing, right?. You think? Nah. You're probably right.

I will actually break out the curling iron and makeup, brush off the dust. Maybe splash on a little perfume. Joe may not recognize me without spit up on my shoulder and my hair hastily thrown up in a pile on my head. Such is the uniform of a SAHM with 4 little ones 4 years old and under...

I'm excited to usher in this new year. It's always so full of promise. It's so cool being right at the precipice of the unknown-a fresh start, a chance to start clean.

There are plenty of things I gladly say goodbye to and many more that I sadly let go...There was some loss and some gains in 2009. For starters, our little Robert Maxim was born in 2009, and I can't imagine life without him (or any of our little ones, for that matter.) Finances were a mess pretty much across the board for everyone. That is something I won't regret leaving behind.

But, one thing that always kind of haunts me is the time lost. I will never get back even a second of the previous year. That means that all those things I wanted to do, should have done, could have done, but didn't or did and shouldn't have...I will never be able to go back and change. Geez. I'm starting to depress myself.

On a happier note-it's not too late to do them yet. As long as I am drawing breath, I still have the opportunity to do or say the things I want to and should.

Here is my homegrown list of resolutions for 2010. I don't really subscribe to that kind of pressure (a list of things that I want to do within a year) but here it is for a blueprint of where I would like my life to head (in no particular order)...

10) Read the Bible daily
I've gotten better, but still not there.

9) Reach out to others.
There are so many who need and I have been blessed. I really want to pay it forward.

8) Be more patient with my kids
I realize by asking for patience it's a double-edged sword because the Lord provides you with opportunities to hone the skill of patience, but if it means I don't explode on my kids, then it's worth it.

7) Be a truer friend
There are many of you (and you know who you are) who I am not very good with returning calls or emails or texts. That sucks. I don't like it when it happens to me and I will do my very best not to be that friend. I make no promises, but I will make an effort...

6) Be a better wife
Joe could easily earn the medal of sainthood because of all the craziness he puts up with from me. I am not always--okay usually--that supportive of the things that bring me stress, like the demands of his job, and I really want to provide a safe haven in our home where he can take shelter from the cruel world that he faces every day.

5) Be on time
Anyone who knows me knows that I am typically late for things. It doesn't matter if I leave 30 minutes earlier, somehow I always end up being late. I'm not sure how to fix this one, but I will give it the old college try.

4) Shower every day.

Wow. How embarrassing I actually admitted that. But, in my defense, sometimes I shower the night before and then the next day is so full of cleaning, that I feel like, 'what's the point?' Maybe that was TMI. Might regret putting that one later...

 Okay...moving on...

3) Stay un-pregnant long enough to get my girlish figure back.
Again, I make no promises on this, but I am making a concerted effort to trim my diet and my waist. Four kids in 4 1/2 years is tough on the bod. Weight Watchers and I are going to take control this year!

2) Maintain this blog
I enjoy it and it helps me sort things out. I enjoy others reading it and it forces me to remain real.

1) Represent Christ in all I say and do.
I do not want to be one of those people who confuse others because what I claim to be and the way I act contradict each other. I know I have failed miserably in the past and probably will again, but my heart is true and the desire is there. My goal is to be real and transparent.

And that scares the crap out of me. But I know it's worth it.

Make your own list. Share them with me...come on, I feel like I am talking to myself
on here!!!
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